Day 5 of 31: Feeling Like Me

Currently, I am reading The Magnolia Story by Chip & Joanna Gaines (my most favorite couple). Meg got it from her fiancé for Christmas and passed it along to me after she finished reading it. We both loved watching Fixer Upper together when we lived in our cute little coach house. What I love most about this show (other than watching the remodel unfold), is how real and right Chip & JoJo seem to be as a couple. They are quirky, kind, honest, and supportive. The book reveals even more about how their relationship got started and frankly, their story is just so refreshing. Time and time again they talk about how being around each other simply energizes them. What a unique way of feeling in a relationship.

“I wonder sometimes if we know ourselves a lot better than we think we do when we’re children. We get into our teen years and college years, and so many of us let others redefine who we are, or we get lost along the way and have no idea what we really want to do with our lives. But once we finally figure it out, it often seems easy to look back into our childhoods and find a few clues that say, “Hey maybe you were headed in that direction all along.”” 

–Joanna Gaines, The Magnolia Story

This passage struck me because I find such truth in the sentiment. Sometimes I step back and think… How in the world did I co-found a business? When did I become such a yogi? Why yoga for kids?

Looking back at my childhood though, it just makes sense. I’ve always been a teacher. That’s a fact that anyone who knows me can validate. There is a picture of my six-year old self playing school with a clipboard in hand. Classrooms have always felt like my natural habitat, and yet I remember school bringing out some anxiety. I’ve always been one who feels deeply and for a variety of reasons learned to be very in tune with both my body and my emotions at a young age. Although my yoga practice hasn’t spanned my whole life, it makes me feel so much like me. 0-6 year olds are my people, as I say. I’ve had the holding a baby thing down since I was six (that’s what happens when you come from an absurdly large family). I wrote a research paper on child-development in eighth grade. I can talk to a wall and the wall talks back, so making friends and networking comes easy. The more I reflect, the more I see that I’ve never felt more like me than I do in this moment. Perhaps Joanna Gaines is right. Maybe I’ve been headed in this direction all along.